dreams and nightmares

Dream: My legs slowly drifted past the old tan buildings surrounding me. The sky was misty and hazy like my vision. My head felt heavy on my weightless body whenever I passed a corner onto the next street. Sometimes I’d see a woman graffitied on a wall and it felt like her eyes looked into mine with wonder and kindness. Sometimes the graffiti contained balloons and small figurines. All of them coming to life with every blink of my eyes. Swirling and twirling in black graffiti paint. Almost at school, I pass by other students who look far away from me and blurry. Untouchable. I don’t feel real. I hope that when I open the door to the building I’ll feel something.

Nightmare: I lock the door to my apartment and start walking towards the street. It is thundering and the sun is still not here to protect me this early in the morning. I am fatigued and my entire body is shivering from the cold and the rain. I see no one outside other than a dark shadow around the corner. It moves quickly and I shiver, what is that? I keep walking, only 5 minutes away from school now, but the closer I get to school the closer the shadow gets. All of a sudden the street turns into darkness until I am completely consumed by pitch black nothingness. I look to see my hands in front of my face, to feel the wall that was next to me a second ago; nothing. I feel something drip on me, it’s not rain. It’s warm and heavy and then it becomes visible. Red, red everywhere-